The sense of relievment....

I am so relieved that I have finally got it out the way....
It was a 30 minute presentation which lasted around 40mins, I was nervous, non-confident, but hopefully I have done okay.
I hate it when I always lack confidence and feel that I need my team mates to carry me all the time, but during presentations I feel lost and just cannot find my way back to the surface again. However, today I think it went Okay, not good or fantastic but okay. But the problem is, my self esteem is low along with my confidence and sometimes I just do not feel it creeping up to a higher level. Now I'm worried that it may affect my other presentation when we have them. Even if I practice alot on my own, I am absolutely fine but when Im in my group I loose track and start to stutter and muddle up what I was to say.

I always look forward to an end of a presentation, This is when I feel most relieved. But, then again there are other things........