I am dedicating this piece of blog to UGLY BETTY!
Although she is a fictional character from a US drama - there are many people in the world that she potrays and I find her rather inspirational.
Apart from being a incredibly brilliant writer/editor she is pretty fearless. She strives to achieve whatever she can to make sure she stays on top. She does not care what people say about her, she does not care what people think of her, she is constantly supporting her family no matter how busy her work life is.
She is my inspiration - She's fearless and that is one thing that I lack in life. She also has a whole load of self believe and faith in herself which also shows her confidence in getting herself to places that she wants to be.
If I can be like her just a fraction of the time I believe I can get far too. But there must be something that I am scared of which blocks my way. I mean we take risks in life, What have we got to lose? People say that to me all the time and there is no comeback phrase to that because a risk is a risk. You want to show your fearless side you should take whatever risks you can. Make sure you live life to the full.
Also, you should remember whether that risk is worth it or not, you can always look back and take from it, learn from it, and improve yourself from it.
I for one am scared of taking risks and here I can be speaking for the majority of people who might read this, I know why I hate taking risks because I am scared of the consequence that it may hold and the people it may affect. But than again that phrase pops up in my head - What have you got to looose....??????
Exactly what have you got to lose - but I guess it depends on the situation or the nature of the risk.
In Life we have to take RISKS sometimes, we have to challenge ourselves to the limit that we can because we only live once and we cannot dwell on the facts thinking what could have been? -Maybe they can be......
Challenge yourself - Take a risk - BE FEARLESS!
Monday, 16 May 2011
Thursday, 28 April 2011
DOUBTS!
Here I was going to pour my heart out to the guy I have had a crush on for a while, But I am scared of getting my heart broken - if all the stuf he has done meant nothing than it is rather misleading -
Huh - why is this so hard sometimes?
Can life just not be as simple as a fairytale. Would be much appreciated!
Huh - why is this so hard sometimes?
Can life just not be as simple as a fairytale. Would be much appreciated!
Wednesday, 20 April 2011
Friday, 15 April 2011
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
..................Lost and Confused
I didn't really know who to talk to - but it seems my life is heading towards a brick wall.
I'm just brave enough to wear a smile everyday, brave enough to say everything is okay, But it is not and I really do not know who to talk to.
I know everyone have these moments - but it seems to be dragging for me.
Nothing and I mean nothing is on track for me - Lady luck has not been on my side for a very very long time. It is frustrating and depressing.
I have a feeling I am failing in life, it just does not seems to be balanced, more on the bad side weighing down the scale and the 'Good' side is high up from the ground. The 'Good' things should be touching the ground, it should be stable in that position and never become light - that is life - the good things make up life and I just do not seem to have any.
Any Advice?
I'm just brave enough to wear a smile everyday, brave enough to say everything is okay, But it is not and I really do not know who to talk to.
I know everyone have these moments - but it seems to be dragging for me.
Nothing and I mean nothing is on track for me - Lady luck has not been on my side for a very very long time. It is frustrating and depressing.
I have a feeling I am failing in life, it just does not seems to be balanced, more on the bad side weighing down the scale and the 'Good' side is high up from the ground. The 'Good' things should be touching the ground, it should be stable in that position and never become light - that is life - the good things make up life and I just do not seem to have any.
Any Advice?
Thursday, 24 March 2011
All Over for Now.
All my deadlines are up to scratch - feeling relieved.
All I have to do is get my exams out the way and walla.
Still struggling to find a placement though.
Also, feeling emotionaly confused.
Recently found out that the guy I liked was offered a placement, for some reason I was happy but dissapointed too.
I think he likes me, i really do - we get along but I do not think anything will happen.
He came into the same computer room as me to work by me - and he doesn't even like that room, also left when I left. Sweet *Smiles*
But the question is - will it work? I mean how will it actually work out if he goes on placement and I am just sticking around.
We get along well as friends, but there is something more I want.
- I do not want toe make the first move though....just in case I am reading the signs wrong.
To be honest after I read his status - it put me in the worst mood.
But when I saw him - He gave me a very long hug - like he wanted to celebrate his success with me.
It was very long - very sweet too, I did not even see it coming - he just saw me and came up and hugged me.
But it cheered me up - alot.
It really did.
=]
All I have to do is get my exams out the way and walla.
Still struggling to find a placement though.
Also, feeling emotionaly confused.
Recently found out that the guy I liked was offered a placement, for some reason I was happy but dissapointed too.
I think he likes me, i really do - we get along but I do not think anything will happen.
He came into the same computer room as me to work by me - and he doesn't even like that room, also left when I left. Sweet *Smiles*
But the question is - will it work? I mean how will it actually work out if he goes on placement and I am just sticking around.
We get along well as friends, but there is something more I want.
- I do not want toe make the first move though....just in case I am reading the signs wrong.
To be honest after I read his status - it put me in the worst mood.
But when I saw him - He gave me a very long hug - like he wanted to celebrate his success with me.
It was very long - very sweet too, I did not even see it coming - he just saw me and came up and hugged me.
But it cheered me up - alot.
It really did.
=]
Wednesday, 2 March 2011
Saturday, 26 February 2011
Faking All.....
Do you ever get the feeling that you are just faking everything you do?
A smile that never seems to be true,
Things said that never meant to be said,
Things you do that are not true to yourself,
Talking to people that you do not actually like,
Being nice only to get nothing in return,
Then I guess for a while you are feeling like me. I actually do not know what I am doing with my life right now. Nothing seems to be falling into place at all. All I can do is blog it on here becuase I do not know where else I can get rid of this confusing and lost feeling except drowning them in alcohol.
Can not seem to find a placement, however will keep applying once I have time.
Too much work and even though I act if I can handle it -- I actually CANNOT!
Its actually very stressful and I am starting to feel the pressure.
My marks this year are not great - I am actually worried that I wil not be able to average a 2:1 this year which kind of means a FAIL to me.
It's not even like I am not trying this year. I am. I am trying very hard and all I get in return are this low marks that are only worthy to scrape a pass. Are you joking?
People say that it's because year 2 is much harder, but is it really. Could it really be that hard that my grades are half of what they were last year?
Surely not?
Excues are what these are - Year 2 getting harder is a excuse for the low marks that I have recieved -
Think it is actually all down to me. Maybe I am not pushing myself hard enough at all.
Is this my punishment for partying too much? Drinking too much? Spending too much of my time having fun and relaxing?
If it is I will stop - All I want is to be able to achieve something in my life that I can be proud of and not just me my parents too.
I cannot bare to tell them my grades - They will probably say 'At least you passed'. But I know that there is dissapointment in their eyes. They cannot hide it well and it acutally hurts me as their daughter.
However, they can be very harsh with their words.
There was this one time when my mum compared me to my cousin - 'You and May are very different' -Obviously hinting that she is not happy with me. It HURTS okay!! And maybe my mum does not think it affects me as much. IT DOES and for some reason I cannot let it go and it Hurts everytime I think back her saying that. I also think that this has damaged our relationship a bit.
The one reason I HATE coming home is because my parents say things that Hurt and they do not even care.
Also....
I feel so demotivated as well - Along side not understanding much of the work especially in the IT side of things. I do not know if I can take it anymore to be honest.
I have a verge to drop out and become one of those people who are stuck in a supermarket job day to day.
But I cannnot bring myself to live in that life of reality.
But I really do not know if I can handle anymore of this - or think of anything to help me keep the edge of.
I hate the fact that these days are just flying by meaning that I will be meeting the DEADLINE soon. Fear is that I am actually scared that I will not be able to submit my work to a high standard quality level. I doubt I will fail - but thats the worst bit right - you fail you get to resit - if you do not - you don't. Therefore you are just stuck with the mark you got at the first place right? So - that sucks!
Why can't there not be obvious arrows pointing you in the right direction? So I actually can play my life like a board game and see if I do reach the finish line successfully.
Life is a bitch - Such a bite in the ass.
However, When I smile they are true even if I admit that not all of them are - some of them are forced/fake but to get through - I guess I just have to be true to myself and give myself some faith to get by.
But to be honest I would like some guidance - They say god works in mysterious ways - But to me he only works with the people who belive in him and not those who seeks his guidance. Is that fair? After all we are all god's creatures right? So where is the fairness in that when we need him the most to show us some guidance?
Oh this is pretty pathetic - I am passing blames - Passing them pathetically as well.
I think I am too confused about life at this very moment. I need some thinking time.
I need to get away from everything and everyone so that I can clear my mind and think of something to aim for that is worth my while. I NEED TIME!!!!
A smile that never seems to be true,
Things said that never meant to be said,
Things you do that are not true to yourself,
Talking to people that you do not actually like,
Being nice only to get nothing in return,
Then I guess for a while you are feeling like me. I actually do not know what I am doing with my life right now. Nothing seems to be falling into place at all. All I can do is blog it on here becuase I do not know where else I can get rid of this confusing and lost feeling except drowning them in alcohol.
Can not seem to find a placement, however will keep applying once I have time.
Too much work and even though I act if I can handle it -- I actually CANNOT!
Its actually very stressful and I am starting to feel the pressure.
My marks this year are not great - I am actually worried that I wil not be able to average a 2:1 this year which kind of means a FAIL to me.
It's not even like I am not trying this year. I am. I am trying very hard and all I get in return are this low marks that are only worthy to scrape a pass. Are you joking?
People say that it's because year 2 is much harder, but is it really. Could it really be that hard that my grades are half of what they were last year?
Surely not?
Excues are what these are - Year 2 getting harder is a excuse for the low marks that I have recieved -
Think it is actually all down to me. Maybe I am not pushing myself hard enough at all.
Is this my punishment for partying too much? Drinking too much? Spending too much of my time having fun and relaxing?
If it is I will stop - All I want is to be able to achieve something in my life that I can be proud of and not just me my parents too.
I cannot bare to tell them my grades - They will probably say 'At least you passed'. But I know that there is dissapointment in their eyes. They cannot hide it well and it acutally hurts me as their daughter.
However, they can be very harsh with their words.
There was this one time when my mum compared me to my cousin - 'You and May are very different' -Obviously hinting that she is not happy with me. It HURTS okay!! And maybe my mum does not think it affects me as much. IT DOES and for some reason I cannot let it go and it Hurts everytime I think back her saying that. I also think that this has damaged our relationship a bit.
The one reason I HATE coming home is because my parents say things that Hurt and they do not even care.
Also....
I feel so demotivated as well - Along side not understanding much of the work especially in the IT side of things. I do not know if I can take it anymore to be honest.
I have a verge to drop out and become one of those people who are stuck in a supermarket job day to day.
But I cannnot bring myself to live in that life of reality.
But I really do not know if I can handle anymore of this - or think of anything to help me keep the edge of.
I hate the fact that these days are just flying by meaning that I will be meeting the DEADLINE soon. Fear is that I am actually scared that I will not be able to submit my work to a high standard quality level. I doubt I will fail - but thats the worst bit right - you fail you get to resit - if you do not - you don't. Therefore you are just stuck with the mark you got at the first place right? So - that sucks!
Why can't there not be obvious arrows pointing you in the right direction? So I actually can play my life like a board game and see if I do reach the finish line successfully.
Life is a bitch - Such a bite in the ass.
However, When I smile they are true even if I admit that not all of them are - some of them are forced/fake but to get through - I guess I just have to be true to myself and give myself some faith to get by.
But to be honest I would like some guidance - They say god works in mysterious ways - But to me he only works with the people who belive in him and not those who seeks his guidance. Is that fair? After all we are all god's creatures right? So where is the fairness in that when we need him the most to show us some guidance?
Oh this is pretty pathetic - I am passing blames - Passing them pathetically as well.
I think I am too confused about life at this very moment. I need some thinking time.
I need to get away from everything and everyone so that I can clear my mind and think of something to aim for that is worth my while. I NEED TIME!!!!
Sunday, 20 February 2011
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe
Blogging
I do like to blog. I like to write. Write about all the good and bad times. Do not really care if anyone reads because I like to get how I am feeling and capture the moment in text.
Current song to set the mood - -Sam Tsui - Hold it against me (cover)!
Obviously better then the original (sorry Britney).
I think everyone should blog about how they feel however not turning this into a discussion board in the process of, but there are jsut some things that cannot be said to another person however close you are to them.
Like me for example - - I actually keep everything to myself - - there are a lot of things I do not tell anyone about - - But sometimes, only sometimes can I write this down on here and take a load of my chest. Although, guessing the best thing to do is to talk to a close friend or family memeber. Problem with that is I do not want to bore them with my problems, my life and share my ungrateful life with them.
So I keep SMILING.
I come across as a Happy individual without a care in the world. And that is the way it would remain.
Current song to set the mood - -Sam Tsui - Hold it against me (cover)!
Obviously better then the original (sorry Britney).
I think everyone should blog about how they feel however not turning this into a discussion board in the process of, but there are jsut some things that cannot be said to another person however close you are to them.
Like me for example - - I actually keep everything to myself - - there are a lot of things I do not tell anyone about - - But sometimes, only sometimes can I write this down on here and take a load of my chest. Although, guessing the best thing to do is to talk to a close friend or family memeber. Problem with that is I do not want to bore them with my problems, my life and share my ungrateful life with them.
So I keep SMILING.
I come across as a Happy individual without a care in the world. And that is the way it would remain.
Diet!
Well it is official that I am on a Diet!!.....
I will definately try to stick to it as much as I possibly can.
GYM and Eating Less will do the trick nice and easy.......
Several reasons for this diet is because 1. I am fat... ( guess that is the reason for why everyone diets)
2. Because my parents said I am fat (very supportive are they not?). 3. Probably clinging on to reason 1 - -Not confident with body. 4. Rather not be the so called "Curvy". 5. To make myself feel better around all my skinny friends.
There it is. I just threw it all out the window. My whole CONFIDENCE!
Brilliant huh?
Think I will just climb out and pick it up in a years time or whenever I can shift all my flabber and shake it off!
I will definately try to stick to it as much as I possibly can.
GYM and Eating Less will do the trick nice and easy.......
Several reasons for this diet is because 1. I am fat... ( guess that is the reason for why everyone diets)
2. Because my parents said I am fat (very supportive are they not?). 3. Probably clinging on to reason 1 - -Not confident with body. 4. Rather not be the so called "Curvy". 5. To make myself feel better around all my skinny friends.
There it is. I just threw it all out the window. My whole CONFIDENCE!
Brilliant huh?
Think I will just climb out and pick it up in a years time or whenever I can shift all my flabber and shake it off!
Tuesday, 15 February 2011
2.00 AM - - 16th Feburary 2011
This is the precise time, date, moth and year of this post.
I am just writting since I will not be going to sleep soon as I have to do my coursework.
Would just like to talk about myself in general.
In project management lecture a couple weeks back, my lecturer told me to sign up to Joahri's window which choosing charateristics about yourself and let other fill it in to see how they percieve you.
Over 50% have said that I am a Happy individual - But, even though I may look happy all the time I have problems, worries too. However, no one seems to question them. I guess since I always wear a smile there is no need as people just presume that I am always okay.
Sad thing is my parents do not understand me at all - Neither do they question.
To be honest I can not wait to move out as soon as I can.
But then again - I do not think any of my friends understand me as an individual at all. Maybe becuase I am not as open as I percive myself as? Or I just do not want to bore my friends with my life problems and my needs - Writting that makes me sound very self centered.
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Well I went out for Valentines day - - Was a pretty awesome night. Best by far I have had for a while.
But, a lot of male singles were out with the gaze of desperationt o get laid with whoever they can get their hands on. Thankfully I am sensible.
There was a dude I met - - Well I say met I do not even know his name but he was cool - - Smiles.
Never actually had the confidence to pull.
For many reason that is
I do not think I am pretty enough.
Not confident enough.
Not skinny enough.
...I could go on.
But before I depress myself I shall stop here.
Also. Main reason probably becuase I developed a crush - - Do not see the point in all that one off pull - --
I really should get back to work since I have a very short attention span and also do spend majority of my time doing nothing or being distracted then actual work output.
I am just writting since I will not be going to sleep soon as I have to do my coursework.
Would just like to talk about myself in general.
In project management lecture a couple weeks back, my lecturer told me to sign up to Joahri's window which choosing charateristics about yourself and let other fill it in to see how they percieve you.
Over 50% have said that I am a Happy individual - But, even though I may look happy all the time I have problems, worries too. However, no one seems to question them. I guess since I always wear a smile there is no need as people just presume that I am always okay.
Sad thing is my parents do not understand me at all - Neither do they question.
To be honest I can not wait to move out as soon as I can.
But then again - I do not think any of my friends understand me as an individual at all. Maybe becuase I am not as open as I percive myself as? Or I just do not want to bore my friends with my life problems and my needs - Writting that makes me sound very self centered.
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Well I went out for Valentines day - - Was a pretty awesome night. Best by far I have had for a while.
But, a lot of male singles were out with the gaze of desperationt o get laid with whoever they can get their hands on. Thankfully I am sensible.
There was a dude I met - - Well I say met I do not even know his name but he was cool - - Smiles.
Never actually had the confidence to pull.
For many reason that is
I do not think I am pretty enough.
Not confident enough.
Not skinny enough.
...I could go on.
But before I depress myself I shall stop here.
Also. Main reason probably becuase I developed a crush - - Do not see the point in all that one off pull - --
I really should get back to work since I have a very short attention span and also do spend majority of my time doing nothing or being distracted then actual work output.
Sunday, 13 February 2011
V-Day, Monday, Just Another Day...
Yes - -valentines Day tomorrow and guess what it is just another normal monday, normal day, university day and I treat it that way.
Valentines has been designed to remind the singles that they should be proud to be single because tehy do not have to spend money on gifts for their partner therefore you save money which I think is a win win!
I personally like to go out and get tottally wrecked because this is a celebration for all the singletons to have some fun.
However, I also thought V-day was the day to express your feelings to someone you care about. but if you do care about them should you not actually express your feelings to them every day? - - i deal - - As much as I am actually talking around this subject area. I can not pluck up the courage to tell my crush how I feel. Guess that would be a fail.
Think I am scared of rejection - not just that but commitment - - Could be the reason why I say 'NO' to literally all the people who has expressed themselves to me.
Thinking back I feel quite mean.
But it is life so let's move on.
Going to get Monday over and done - then spend the next 4 days catching up on my coursework.
Seems like I am not the hard working student that I was last year.
This is actually really bad - - so demotivated.... T_T
Valentines has been designed to remind the singles that they should be proud to be single because tehy do not have to spend money on gifts for their partner therefore you save money which I think is a win win!
I personally like to go out and get tottally wrecked because this is a celebration for all the singletons to have some fun.
However, I also thought V-day was the day to express your feelings to someone you care about. but if you do care about them should you not actually express your feelings to them every day? - - i deal - - As much as I am actually talking around this subject area. I can not pluck up the courage to tell my crush how I feel. Guess that would be a fail.
Think I am scared of rejection - not just that but commitment - - Could be the reason why I say 'NO' to literally all the people who has expressed themselves to me.
Thinking back I feel quite mean.
But it is life so let's move on.
Going to get Monday over and done - then spend the next 4 days catching up on my coursework.
Seems like I am not the hard working student that I was last year.
This is actually really bad - - so demotivated.... T_T
Wednesday, 9 February 2011
Taste it - - -Beat It
First sign of failure this year.
One of my assignments were handed back to me to and standing at a mark of 48% it is really nothing to be proud of, considering I spent a lot of time correcting this and making it sound academic.
Seriously are they taking the piss.
Why is the second year of University seem to be the worst year for me.
None of my grades are up to scratch.
They give you modules which are way out of your comfort zone and knows that you will struggle with them.
Which of course given us a low result.
I have a feeling my average this year will be very low.
Might actually make me struggle in the future when I'm seeking a job
It is actually very depressing.
Shame on me that after I got my result for HRM I cried in my car for a while.
How am I going to tell my parents that I have a just pass mark.
Surely they cannot be proud of that.
What is worse another module which is way out of my comfort zone all to do with programming - -I am actually failing.
Sad times this is and there is nothing more worse then Valentines day coming along to top the depression of.
Hopefully it will pick up sometime soon. Need some help from lady luck..
One of my assignments were handed back to me to and standing at a mark of 48% it is really nothing to be proud of, considering I spent a lot of time correcting this and making it sound academic.
Seriously are they taking the piss.
Why is the second year of University seem to be the worst year for me.
None of my grades are up to scratch.
They give you modules which are way out of your comfort zone and knows that you will struggle with them.
Which of course given us a low result.
I have a feeling my average this year will be very low.
Might actually make me struggle in the future when I'm seeking a job
It is actually very depressing.
Shame on me that after I got my result for HRM I cried in my car for a while.
How am I going to tell my parents that I have a just pass mark.
Surely they cannot be proud of that.
What is worse another module which is way out of my comfort zone all to do with programming - -I am actually failing.
Sad times this is and there is nothing more worse then Valentines day coming along to top the depression of.
Hopefully it will pick up sometime soon. Need some help from lady luck..
Tuesday, 8 February 2011
Sunday, 6 February 2011
Roses are Red, Voilets are Blue, Here is a Knife, Just For You....
Well valentines is in approximately ONE WEEK.
This day is like exactly like marmite - you either love it or absolutely hate it!!!
I for one HATE IT - it such a depressing day that I will be drowning myself in alcohol to make it look not so bad.
But for those love birds out there, I hope you all have a fantastic day.
I guess this is the day where people express their feeling to the one they love or just generally just let someone know how they feel.
I am not brave enough to do that - I unfortunately have a fear of rejection as I take ages getting over them - Also do not want to damage a perfectly good friendship.
So what do I do?
Sadly I have not seen him around lately - but I do miss seeing him around.
God - Talk about sad -this is even worse -
Cannot pluck up the courage to tell someone how you feel? It is a a bit wimpish and if that is how it is then I am a WIMP.
Nevermind!
The perfect man to have would probably be Mr Darcy from Bridget Jones
A most heart warming phrase that he says to Bridget is "Like you just as you are"! - It is perfect!
Well happy valentines everyone
and also
Happy Chinese New Year! (Kung Hei Fat Choi)!!
This day is like exactly like marmite - you either love it or absolutely hate it!!!
I for one HATE IT - it such a depressing day that I will be drowning myself in alcohol to make it look not so bad.
But for those love birds out there, I hope you all have a fantastic day.
I guess this is the day where people express their feeling to the one they love or just generally just let someone know how they feel.
I am not brave enough to do that - I unfortunately have a fear of rejection as I take ages getting over them - Also do not want to damage a perfectly good friendship.
So what do I do?
Sadly I have not seen him around lately - but I do miss seeing him around.
God - Talk about sad -this is even worse -
Cannot pluck up the courage to tell someone how you feel? It is a a bit wimpish and if that is how it is then I am a WIMP.
Nevermind!
The perfect man to have would probably be Mr Darcy from Bridget Jones
A most heart warming phrase that he says to Bridget is "Like you just as you are"! - It is perfect!
Well happy valentines everyone
and also
Happy Chinese New Year! (Kung Hei Fat Choi)!!
Tuesday, 25 January 2011
Sense of relive.....
My mum went to the doctors today because of something very unusual that has happened. I will not share.
But for some reason I felt terrified - - What is the doctor going to say? Or what will he/she diagnose,
To be honest I was just very scared.
But today I rang up and apparently whatever happened is popular with the crowd.
Sense of relive....Yes!
But for some reason I felt terrified - - What is the doctor going to say? Or what will he/she diagnose,
To be honest I was just very scared.
But today I rang up and apparently whatever happened is popular with the crowd.
Sense of relive....Yes!
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
Writing, Written, Writes, Wrote.
Writing a blog about myself - my life is something that I never thought to do but I found inspiration by a friend who now lives far from Bristol. It does not matter if anyone reads either because I like writing and I like reading back as well - that is all that matters. Best thing about blogs is that you can read and then leave -no need to comment either - if sharing my thoughts can inspire others than that is nice - if you find it boring don't read - Simples.
This blog entry would be my 95th and there will always be more to come - I have 353 days and I can blog as much as I want and as often I can. All previous written blog entry has been written for a reason - majority just showing the way I feel. This will not stop as it is my thoughts that I have written about.
The reason I called this blog entry Writing, Written, Writes and Wrote is because this represent me and my blog - all blogs that have been Written and Wrote and those that I am Writing and Writes - the past, present and future entries on this blog - in the next 353 days.
This blog entry would be my 95th and there will always be more to come - I have 353 days and I can blog as much as I want and as often I can. All previous written blog entry has been written for a reason - majority just showing the way I feel. This will not stop as it is my thoughts that I have written about.
The reason I called this blog entry Writing, Written, Writes and Wrote is because this represent me and my blog - all blogs that have been Written and Wrote and those that I am Writing and Writes - the past, present and future entries on this blog - in the next 353 days.
Exam Period One = Over!
My only exam has been taken and there is nothing else to do but to relax. However, there is a particular secition that I did not revise properly but what's done is done and I know I have passed therefore it is okay.
My grade may not be high, but second term there is plenty room for improvement.
There is something . . . .
Can not make out what this feeling is - but it's sweet and for some reason puts a smile on my face.
This song kinda makes me feel happy.....
I want something sweet to happen - More like a cherry on top!
I'm sure something is coming my way.
Need to be patient.
I came back Monday which was two days ago - and sadly I am still living from my suitcase and I have no intentions to unpack my stuff - talk about lazy!
This term i aim to have fun - go out and socialise is my priority but alongside I will need to work extra hard this term because first term grades will not be as high as I hoped. I am aiming for a 2:1 grade or higher and if I do not get this at the end of my second year I will be very dissapointed.
I will not settle for anything lower!
Since I have said that I will do it - In order for me to achieve what I want I will put the effort in to make it happen.
New Year, New Rules, New Decisions and they all have to stick!
My grade may not be high, but second term there is plenty room for improvement.
There is something . . . .
Can not make out what this feeling is - but it's sweet and for some reason puts a smile on my face.
This song kinda makes me feel happy.....
I want something sweet to happen - More like a cherry on top!
I'm sure something is coming my way.
Need to be patient.
I came back Monday which was two days ago - and sadly I am still living from my suitcase and I have no intentions to unpack my stuff - talk about lazy!
This term i aim to have fun - go out and socialise is my priority but alongside I will need to work extra hard this term because first term grades will not be as high as I hoped. I am aiming for a 2:1 grade or higher and if I do not get this at the end of my second year I will be very dissapointed.
I will not settle for anything lower!
Since I have said that I will do it - In order for me to achieve what I want I will put the effort in to make it happen.
New Year, New Rules, New Decisions and they all have to stick!
Saturday, 8 January 2011
Thursday, 6 January 2011
7th Day of the New Year!
It has already been a week since the new year has begun and in four days time it will be the first 1/01/11 date, but wait there are plenty more to come. You Just Wait!
I guess at this very moment filling in this is a better option then revising, overall today I started revising at around 2pm, and I am sadly still going and it is nearly hitting 1am. But I guess if I am covering all the areas its much easier to revise from. Enough about that!
New Year New Start - so they all say this is so, feels the same but I guess I have plenty room for some change in my life, just need to think of some resolutions which I have not yet prepared. If you have any ideas plase feed me some.
But this year - the way we entered 2011 was amazing, fantastic company and a bit of a drink on the side - entering a New Year in style and every year is different. For the rest of the week I spent catching up with my freinds from home since I haven't seen them due to University. I have to be honest I really missed those they where you hang out over a meal, just having fun and sober - these are the days I miss - the naturalness of everyone around you and the people who never fails to put a smile on your face! Even driving to a friends on a 40 minute journey is worth every moment - I will try to make this year special - become more outgoing and take more risks but try not to neglect my university work at the same time.
This year feels like a special year for some reason, there is a little twitch in my eye which tells me this year there is a little suprise in it - not necessarily for myself but just a suprise.
I feel sometimes I do not work hard enough, so I will try my best as per usual - I feel like doing something different for this year - do something adventurous but I do not know what! - Hopefully I will be able to get a placement this year , if not, I am going to do something fun and way out of my comfort zone just to show myself that anything is POSSIBLE and all you have to do is beleive in yourself.
This year for me is all about BELIEVE!
If I can tell myself that I can do something as long as I put my mind to it - I will be able to achieve.
I was actually going to have the word tattooed on my wrist - But now - NO - I decided that I do not need to look at my wirst just to remind myself that I should beleive in myself. I should always keep this in myself where everyone can see it just being around you and seeing it physical should have no affect.
I am going to get a tattoo but something pretty.
So far I am enjoying 2011 - Made me realise how many people in my life are important to me and I hope that these people will be with me in 2012 and hopefully some new ones too!
Hope everyone have a wonderful 2011 and have gaines everything that you worked for or wished for!
I guess at this very moment filling in this is a better option then revising, overall today I started revising at around 2pm, and I am sadly still going and it is nearly hitting 1am. But I guess if I am covering all the areas its much easier to revise from. Enough about that!
New Year New Start - so they all say this is so, feels the same but I guess I have plenty room for some change in my life, just need to think of some resolutions which I have not yet prepared. If you have any ideas plase feed me some.
But this year - the way we entered 2011 was amazing, fantastic company and a bit of a drink on the side - entering a New Year in style and every year is different. For the rest of the week I spent catching up with my freinds from home since I haven't seen them due to University. I have to be honest I really missed those they where you hang out over a meal, just having fun and sober - these are the days I miss - the naturalness of everyone around you and the people who never fails to put a smile on your face! Even driving to a friends on a 40 minute journey is worth every moment - I will try to make this year special - become more outgoing and take more risks but try not to neglect my university work at the same time.
This year feels like a special year for some reason, there is a little twitch in my eye which tells me this year there is a little suprise in it - not necessarily for myself but just a suprise.
I feel sometimes I do not work hard enough, so I will try my best as per usual - I feel like doing something different for this year - do something adventurous but I do not know what! - Hopefully I will be able to get a placement this year , if not, I am going to do something fun and way out of my comfort zone just to show myself that anything is POSSIBLE and all you have to do is beleive in yourself.
This year for me is all about BELIEVE!
If I can tell myself that I can do something as long as I put my mind to it - I will be able to achieve.
I was actually going to have the word tattooed on my wrist - But now - NO - I decided that I do not need to look at my wirst just to remind myself that I should beleive in myself. I should always keep this in myself where everyone can see it just being around you and seeing it physical should have no affect.
I am going to get a tattoo but something pretty.
So far I am enjoying 2011 - Made me realise how many people in my life are important to me and I hope that these people will be with me in 2012 and hopefully some new ones too!
Hope everyone have a wonderful 2011 and have gaines everything that you worked for or wished for!