2.00 AM - - 16th Feburary 2011

This is the precise time, date, moth and year of this post.
I am just writting since I will not be going to sleep soon as I have to do my coursework.
Would just like to talk about myself in general.

In project management lecture a couple weeks back, my lecturer told me to sign up to Joahri's window which choosing charateristics about yourself and let other fill it in to see how they percieve you.
Over 50% have said that I am a Happy individual - But, even though I may look happy all the time I have problems, worries too. However, no one seems to question them. I guess since I always wear a smile there is no need as people just presume that I am always okay.

Sad thing is my parents do not understand me at all -  Neither do they question.
To be honest I can not wait to move out as soon as I can.
But then again -  I do not think any of my friends understand me as an individual at all. Maybe becuase I am not as open as I percive myself as? Or I just do not want to bore my friends with my life problems and my needs - Writting that makes me sound very self centered.

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Well I went out for Valentines day - - Was a pretty awesome night. Best by far I have had for a while.
But, a lot of male singles were out with the gaze of desperationt o get laid with whoever they can get their hands on. Thankfully I am sensible.
There was a dude I met - -  Well I say met I do not even know his name but he was cool - - Smiles.
Never actually had the confidence to pull.
For many reason that is
I do not think I am pretty enough.
Not confident enough.
Not skinny enough.
...I could go on.
But before I depress myself I shall stop here.

Also. Main reason probably becuase I developed a crush - -  Do not see the point in all that one off pull - --

I really should get back to work since I have a very short attention span and also do spend majority of my time doing nothing or being distracted then actual work output.