The Ugly Side

Everyone is capable of unleashing a side where they can hurt a person mentally or physically.
They find the weak spot of their opponenet and go in for the kill not thinking about the consequence that it can cause at the end due to the naturalness of quick thinking. What these people do not understand is the feeling of the opposite person, the things said or done can hurt them in many ways and it is not just physical contact that can damage people's self esteem, confidence which can affect their future actions in life.

There were a pair if siblings having an argument, I will call them A and B. A threw a punch at B and in return B said to A that "This is why you have no friends". A was not very good at making friends, therefore A did not have many, this really hurt A from deep down and from that A threw B another punch. But, I actually think B deserves that last punch since B knows that A has a weak point in making friends. B started feeling guilty even though there was no way of withdrawing what has been said.

To be honest the character B in the story is Me. I do not always loose my temper and turn to my ugly side in order to win an argument, even if I am not a calm person I do not usually turn to my Ugly Side. I think that when my brother threw the first punch at me , I just lost it and that is what came to my mind straight away. I do feel terrible, but as stubborn as I am; I can only admit it on here as facing others I would deny my guilt.
It is difficult to fix when you are in the position that I am in, the only thing that I could think of is to let it all blow over and this will be the past, letting all by gone be by gones......
It was also difficult for my parents as they have to stand in between us in hope to come to a settlement. Arguments between siblings can affect parents even deeper then the person themselves. They worry a lot about us, not just about arguments but future events such as passing exams to graduation, whether we can get a job, whether we will get married, and if we get married is that person nice, will they be nice to you, then they worry about you trying to finance your own family.
Parents worry the most about siblings, they wan siblings to get a long even if they are non existence to the earth, It is hard to say or even think that far ahead but that is what they want and we should all try our best to give them what they want.

A lot of people say to me that not just the parent and children's realtionship is unconditional, but brothers and sisters. This may be difficult to believe, but in a way it is true. We fight, we argue, we pass blames but after that we get along in many ways, and if you do not get along with them you would still worry about them whether you are the younger or older sibling.

Human life is fragile, when you hurt them physically, mentally or emotionally this can trigger problems if that person cannot cope. I know this well.....
We should learn to control our ugly side as it can lead to greater costs, we may not understand unless we put ourselves in the position of the other person. Even if we know the weak spot of a certain person, we should never use this to gain anything - The guilt caused can be too hard for anyone to take in.
To be honest, I still feel really bad and terrible about unleashing my Ugly Side during the argument to day and this will not be forgotten in future either. I WILL remember this for a very long time as well. I do not know why, but the last time I faced my Ugly side I still remember it and I do not want to mention what it was because it was horrible and rather evil figure of speech used.

I will from now on try to keep calm, or use some other argumental phrases to use  - avoiding the UGLY SIDE is what I will do for the remaning of my time. But as I said at the beggining, it is usually things you do ro say straight of the top of your head, therefore it is hard to control.
BUT I HAVE TO TRY.