Eveything Is Changing..!

As much as eveyone in the world hates facing the facts of life, But it does change.......

"Without accepting the fact that everything changes, we cannot find perfect composure. But unfortunately, although it is true, it is difficult for us to accept it. Because we cannot accept the truth of transience, we suffer. ~Shunryu Suzuki"

Everything changes everyday,
Things change with every move we make,
Every step we take,
And we are not the ones to control that,
As we have to takes those steps in order to carry on with our lives.
Changes can vary by size, however big or small these changes can still affect the person that you are, sometimes we even learn from these changes to the effectiveness of using them to help ourselves get by.
Some changes makes us worse, depressed and even confused. Leading us feeling trapped and lost.
But, some change for the better. And if you are able to look past the change for the worst, it will not be so bad.
I moved houses many times, this resulted in moving schools, changing the surroundings and adapting to the new atmosphere; making new friends and trying to fit in. I have done this 3 times, 4 if you include University.
And I know that life cannot be undone, if we take one step forward and then take a step back it is not neccessary that we land in the exact same spot that we moved from, this is because things change....
Change happens every second, in every second somewhere in the world something changes and it cannot be undone. There is nothing you can say or do to undo a change because it has already happened.
People always say I will put my life on hold for you, but they can't, it is purely impossible to pause life, therefore when it comes to times where you think that life changed for the worst then Hold on and Keep Tight, because in the end everything always turns out okay.

There are many ways to see into your future, the most popular ways that we try to change, avoid future events from happening are from Tarot cards, daily horoscopes, fortune teller. Then again, only if you believe them. I can not say that I don't. A few years back, a friend brought a pack of tarot cards in for fun, you draw three cards representing your life of

PAST
PRESENT
FUTURE

....I do not recall my first two cards, but my third was the DEATH card.
Be aware that this card does not actually bring death; the basic meaning of this card is a big change that will happen changing your life completely.
I thought it was compelte rubbish, but thinking about it, My MUM and DAD told me that we will be moving within a months time. Therefore, it is difficult for me not to believe that the card was accurate to see into my future but I found it hard to be coincedental, Maybe it was.
But for these years that has passed, I still remember this very card that I drew about my future and still think that it cannot be such of a coicidence......

In many case, if you cannot adapt to a change however big or small that is, try to turn to another alternative and change yourself.

Then you would know that it will be for the better and not for the worse....

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor Frankl

Eden Lake

Eden Lake highlights the aggresive side of any person to the max, I did not actually watch it as it played but skipped parts to understand the story.

I am a fan of horror/thriller films, but when they get to a extent where you watch someone cut into a living creature, it is just too much.

The basic plot of this is where a couple decides to camp on a beach and the man was planning a proposal. But, whilst they were there they bumped into a gang of youths. Disturbing as they can be, the man decides to confront them when they damaged their vehichle and stole their belongings, however confronting these youth has a fateful consequence attached to them. The film potrays the gang as violent hoodies, they tied the man with barbed wires to a tree stump, and each member of the gang taking a stab at him. They then start to hunt down the man's girlfriend. At the end after watching her husband die, she ends up crashed up, on the garden that the leader of the gangs house live, and is killed by the youth's father in order to cover up the tracks.

This film is not just a film made to become violent and gruesome in it genre, but in my point of view is just to show that a child's behaviour is affected by the people we look up to; our parents. They model the role we walk in and they show us what is right from what is wrong. Although the film shows the most horrific side that a gang of youths can be, it is true and it does happen. It happens on the news everyday, especially the Bulger Brother's case which fits perfectly into this film, the violence, the anger and the way they think.

This film needs a strong stomach if you do decide to watch it, it is a film that shows the monstrosity of a human being and how they will act towards the anger they are feeling..........

But on the other hand......It could be biased and prejudice to those youth gangs as this is the perspective that we see them in, and this is how we potray them. If youth gangs are such a threat to society, why are there still so much of them out there, round every corner, walking every street...

This film plots the characteristics of each person to their worst and never changing......

Trying Something New.......

I thought I try something new today,
And this is rather simple to a certain extent, which is basically writting  Blog during a lesson.
IT is a highly pointless thing to point out and also usless to actually write a blog on it ...
But then again, as the title states..... It is something NEW.

At this very moment, I am sat with a member o my teammate working on a project using strictly Access. It is rather boring and to be honest there is not much point of me being here at all.
However, it seems to me that one team member gets to slip away at all times, which I can say is highly unfair.

In this classroom there are currently 13 people,  4 - whom I know, and the rest - well they are strangers to me. I actually thought students will come in here with a purpose to work.
But judging by the monitors that I can see and are in use - Facebook!
This can describe that students, in their spare time never do work but instead spend time surfing the social network websites waiting for a reply of a comment or keeping th mouse on the refresh button to see if any one has any interesting status updates, allowing the user to select the "Like" button in order to show every one of their friends that they "Like" the status even if it just says "Eating toast".

So to wrap up, students can be boring.

Some people just walked in, saw someone that they know and decided to talk very very loud, not knowing that other people are working or updating a blog, which consists of a recommended level of concentration as to not move of the geneal point for this Blog entry.

The lesson that I am currently in is Business Applications (Peer Assisted Learning). My PAL leader is helpful in many ways, guiding us and giving us some consideration that we should take into account to our coursework. I was going to apply to be  a PAL leader, but then again I will be changing courses in September and on the plus side my grades will not show the new set of Information Technology Management for Business students a good encouragemnt that I know the subject really well.
I am really bad with presentaions and unfortunately that is worth 80% which I only got 64 in.
It was not the lowest. But it is Low.

People are also eating in here. It is not affecting me because I had enough time between Waking up and going to lecture to eat.

I can tell you one thing that is rather annoying.
My team mates breathing. It is really heavy and I would thought why not breather through his mouth, but through the nose developing a very heavy inhale and exhale sound when they are in action.
Although, he is sat next to me, I hav to get it out my head.
I actually have not done anything productive in this 48minutes.
But its okay.
Because Im COOL!

Adjourning......

I am proud to announce that in 2 weeks time I will be off for 3 weeks Uni-Free for the Easter Holiday.
Even though I have to revise, But at least I can leave my coursework out the way for a bit.
Ahhh...the thought of relaxation...is just lovely...

However, it all begins once again as where there is a ending , something else begins.....So I will not celebrating so early.

I still have a lot to do during these two weeks, and It will be stressing.
I guess this is life or you can also say this is Fate.
Although, no normal person would like Fate to come to and end, so i guess I will not either....
And on the plus side everything has to start from somewhere before it ends.

We got a whole life ahead of us.
So let's not waste time.....!

Its Mother's Day today,
I bought my mum this musical card that she wanted. a Decor one from Clintons...

Lovely....

Well, my mum was happy so i guess that is all it Matters.....

And I  also bought her a Birthday card to make up for her birthday.....

It was on the 4th of March, just a little out of date but yeah...!

Hmmm....

I do not actually know what else to say...

But when I do..

I shall return!

......Just a thought...

I am finding it rather difficult now, to find a meaning of why I am here or what I am doing.
There seems to be many times where I just think to myself whether or not I have made the right decision in my life and I am frightened to face the truth that I have taken the wrong steps sometimes. 
I am starting to find it difficult to find something that means something to me,
Find something that will make me realise that I am who I am, something to keep me on track.

Everyday, I put on a brave face, just live everyday like I would - Like any normal person.
But, are my smiles true? This, I know when they are. When someone or something makes you happy, you know that you smile for a reason. However, I seem to be missing something to complete myself.
I can not make out what that missing part is, or who it is. But it seems far away and out of reach, a place where it is not in sight to the naked eye or is known to be existence in the world we live in.
The comprehensibility of clear expression, other wise known as Clarity is hard to unravel.
I guess it's because not everyone has lived through to the chapter of their lives where this has become clear - I know I not yet have and it's intimidating since everyone around me has found that simple clarity.

On the other hand, it also takes courage to step up for complexity of life.
Taking a risk each day may change the person that you are, this risk may help you define your Clarity and it only takes as little as 5 minutes to take a risk and have your life changed for the better good or even the opposite.

Sometimes wishing upon a star makes me believe that it will come soon, But we all know that is some FairyTale.

I do also know that most of blog entries are dull and expressive, but it seems to be the only way to help me. Help myself take out what is deep down and just write it here. A place where people may or may not read it, but if they do I don't want to discuss it, since it is from the heart. If i can not talk to someone about it, then it will go here. Feels like a stone turning into a feather. It is one of the most relaxing feelings that anyone can experience.