I didn't really know who to talk to - but it seems my life is heading towards a brick wall.
I'm just brave enough to wear a smile everyday, brave enough to say everything is okay, But it is not and I really do not know who to talk to.
I know everyone have these moments - but it seems to be dragging for me.
Nothing and I mean nothing is on track for me - Lady luck has not been on my side for a very very long time. It is frustrating and depressing.
I have a feeling I am failing in life, it just does not seems to be balanced, more on the bad side weighing down the scale and the 'Good' side is high up from the ground. The 'Good' things should be touching the ground, it should be stable in that position and never become light - that is life - the good things make up life and I just do not seem to have any.
Any Advice?
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
Thursday, 24 March 2011
All Over for Now.
All my deadlines are up to scratch - feeling relieved.
All I have to do is get my exams out the way and walla.
Still struggling to find a placement though.
Also, feeling emotionaly confused.
Recently found out that the guy I liked was offered a placement, for some reason I was happy but dissapointed too.
I think he likes me, i really do - we get along but I do not think anything will happen.
He came into the same computer room as me to work by me - and he doesn't even like that room, also left when I left. Sweet *Smiles*
But the question is - will it work? I mean how will it actually work out if he goes on placement and I am just sticking around.
We get along well as friends, but there is something more I want.
- I do not want toe make the first move though....just in case I am reading the signs wrong.
To be honest after I read his status - it put me in the worst mood.
But when I saw him - He gave me a very long hug - like he wanted to celebrate his success with me.
It was very long - very sweet too, I did not even see it coming - he just saw me and came up and hugged me.
But it cheered me up - alot.
It really did.
=]
All I have to do is get my exams out the way and walla.
Still struggling to find a placement though.
Also, feeling emotionaly confused.
Recently found out that the guy I liked was offered a placement, for some reason I was happy but dissapointed too.
I think he likes me, i really do - we get along but I do not think anything will happen.
He came into the same computer room as me to work by me - and he doesn't even like that room, also left when I left. Sweet *Smiles*
But the question is - will it work? I mean how will it actually work out if he goes on placement and I am just sticking around.
We get along well as friends, but there is something more I want.
- I do not want toe make the first move though....just in case I am reading the signs wrong.
To be honest after I read his status - it put me in the worst mood.
But when I saw him - He gave me a very long hug - like he wanted to celebrate his success with me.
It was very long - very sweet too, I did not even see it coming - he just saw me and came up and hugged me.
But it cheered me up - alot.
It really did.
=]
Wednesday, 2 March 2011
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