Today, I had to do something that is similar to stiching up or complaining, but it has a good reason behind it. If we work in teams and one tem member does not work but takes the credit it can be unfair.
I am a rather soft person, meaning that it will be hard to talk about this issue.
I did though, and I feel really bad - But it is for the best.
When I was talking to my tutor, I was close to tears and I did not know why - Fear of the member being left out, fear of awkwardness or fear of loosing a friend and making a enemy?
It is a difficult world we live in and sometimes these fears cannot control you and I will think really hard from what happened today because everyone should be Fearless.......However, every one has a fear to face the facts that they believe will hurt them emotionally, and would sometimes rather hear a lie than the truth. Fear of abuse, loosing a loved one, fear of failure or fear of confronting. There are no days that we live by without facing a fear, but we do not change them because we do not fight them. Only if we fight those fears, we will become a stonger and a more confident person. Out of the millions of people, there are many people everyday who choose to fight their fears, and there are those who choose to hide and let the feeling control them.
Not everyone has courage, I certainly don't - But for those who fight their fears each day...they are one step to becoming Fearless and one day I will be to.
Thursday, 28 January 2010
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
Let it Rolll.....
Well when I mean let it roll... Sadly I mean Coursework, One member of the team has still made no appearence of returning from the wonderful holiday that they are on. However, I do know most the stuff so I guess thats the good side of things.
Today was probably one of the most non-adventurous and boring days of my life, and I then realise why I never attended those lessons after going for 4 weeks during the first terrm. My first lecture was Information Technology and instead of the infamous Iphone lady we had a new guy, One that is worse then the last, in my opinion that is. He seems a little hyped, drugged and just plain weird and creepy. His voice is dull and skimmed through probably every single slide that was shown, each had a duration of about 8.5 seconds. I only managed to jot down the title. Fantastically fun times I do not agree to.
During my break which was one hour, I had to spend time to do Data Flow Diagrams but level 2 - Much more complex but at least I get the part I am presenting, so Hopefully I shall fly past yet another interview with a good percentage of the marks.
Next lecture I had a Business Application tutorial, teaching us how to apply Business knowledge into a Business basically. It is as boring as it sounds, and it is taught by a person who just goes off into a little tantrum about other stuff. Im not really sure I have learnt anything from this module due to the reason I just plainly do not pay attention. You can not blame me, it is Boring as hell.
So...theres my day.......Worse as ever but not as worse as it can get!
Let it Rolll.......
Today was probably one of the most non-adventurous and boring days of my life, and I then realise why I never attended those lessons after going for 4 weeks during the first terrm. My first lecture was Information Technology and instead of the infamous Iphone lady we had a new guy, One that is worse then the last, in my opinion that is. He seems a little hyped, drugged and just plain weird and creepy. His voice is dull and skimmed through probably every single slide that was shown, each had a duration of about 8.5 seconds. I only managed to jot down the title. Fantastically fun times I do not agree to.
During my break which was one hour, I had to spend time to do Data Flow Diagrams but level 2 - Much more complex but at least I get the part I am presenting, so Hopefully I shall fly past yet another interview with a good percentage of the marks.
Next lecture I had a Business Application tutorial, teaching us how to apply Business knowledge into a Business basically. It is as boring as it sounds, and it is taught by a person who just goes off into a little tantrum about other stuff. Im not really sure I have learnt anything from this module due to the reason I just plainly do not pay attention. You can not blame me, it is Boring as hell.
So...theres my day.......Worse as ever but not as worse as it can get!
Let it Rolll.......
Haiti ...
There are not many events in one part of the world that can grab the attention of near enough the whole world. Usually they are not good news, well it is never good news if the whole world tunes into it.
Haiti, a Carribean country's capital Port-Au-Prince on 12th January has experiences a Earthquake bringing devastation to the hundreds and thousands of people, family and friends as over 150,000 were killed. This left agonising sleepless nights of pain, depression, denial, guilt and lifelessness for those that have been left behind without those they care about or love for. The incident has wiped up all houses levaing majority homeless, and now they bunk out in a camp where there is not even enough space to walk two steps.
The last time I saw al ive coverage of the living condition of the camp actually made me realise how lucky we all can be, and can also mean that we should not take our lives for granted. It is important for people like us to care and there are many in the world, because without us - those who survived would not have a life right now. Although, you do see many in pain and agony as they lie there on a bed; bandaged up, but the most depressing thing is that the doctors had to come to a conclusion to help those who actually had a chance to live and leave those who cannot. We may belive that it is socially and morally wrong to follow that decison but it is the lesser of two evils and a much better option since they are low on supplies.
We can be selfish and self-centred at some point of our lives, but if we come to a sense where we donate money to a particular cause then we must be a good person. That is wrong, there are those who sincerely donate money to a cause but then there are those who follow, there is a difference and I know which one I am. Do you?
This cause will be remembered in the History of natural causes such as Tsunami and I wish those people every luck in dealing with their grieve and hope they have the strength to see past this......
Haiti, a Carribean country's capital Port-Au-Prince on 12th January has experiences a Earthquake bringing devastation to the hundreds and thousands of people, family and friends as over 150,000 were killed. This left agonising sleepless nights of pain, depression, denial, guilt and lifelessness for those that have been left behind without those they care about or love for. The incident has wiped up all houses levaing majority homeless, and now they bunk out in a camp where there is not even enough space to walk two steps.
The last time I saw al ive coverage of the living condition of the camp actually made me realise how lucky we all can be, and can also mean that we should not take our lives for granted. It is important for people like us to care and there are many in the world, because without us - those who survived would not have a life right now. Although, you do see many in pain and agony as they lie there on a bed; bandaged up, but the most depressing thing is that the doctors had to come to a conclusion to help those who actually had a chance to live and leave those who cannot. We may belive that it is socially and morally wrong to follow that decison but it is the lesser of two evils and a much better option since they are low on supplies.
We can be selfish and self-centred at some point of our lives, but if we come to a sense where we donate money to a particular cause then we must be a good person. That is wrong, there are those who sincerely donate money to a cause but then there are those who follow, there is a difference and I know which one I am. Do you?
This cause will be remembered in the History of natural causes such as Tsunami and I wish those people every luck in dealing with their grieve and hope they have the strength to see past this......
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Aggresion....!
As I sit here, I wish the people who live above me an eternity of Happiness and agonising deafness. Many nights They, Him or Her play music rocketing the speakers as they are near explosion. Not caring about others of course, and from this I really hope that they will live the rest of their lives in a agonising and painful way because I am fed up. Clearly they are cold blooded, selfish and self centred people or they were born plainly retarded not knowing that this can affect many people.....
I can hear the lyrics, the bass, and feel the music virbrate on my desk, Clearly it is loud and the thickness of the ceiling is obviously not thick enough and neither sound proof, therefore the sound has travelled straight through......Good times (NOT)...!
So again Eternal happiness and a agonising deafness to all who are enjoying this above my head......and drop dead!
I can hear the lyrics, the bass, and feel the music virbrate on my desk, Clearly it is loud and the thickness of the ceiling is obviously not thick enough and neither sound proof, therefore the sound has travelled straight through......Good times (NOT)...!
So again Eternal happiness and a agonising deafness to all who are enjoying this above my head......and drop dead!
A Premonition...
What would it be like to look into the future and know for sure what would be coming?
It could be a good thing but on the other hand it could be the worse thing to happen.
My first lecture of the first day of Semester 2, was near enough the same as the first lecture of the first day of Semester 1, but only if I knew.
I have a busy schedule ahead of me now, Coursework x2 will be starting soon and I am in the same group for two. I will not discuss their character, but it seems like that one make the team work and one does not. End of. Anyway, there is a coursework where we have to design a web site for a Book shop and that use a lot of coding - It will be very fun I Guess. Another where we have to base it on a Database, mainly using Access - That will be quite easy, Hopefully the marks will be at least 70% or more. And I will be Happy!
However, I have a unreliable team-mate on my side, which can be difficult to try and get things done.
Premonitions are a good thing, Look into the future to see what will happen and then find a way to fix it or prevent it. However, Life is life, any obstacles will need to be fixed when it comes around....
It could be a good thing but on the other hand it could be the worse thing to happen.
My first lecture of the first day of Semester 2, was near enough the same as the first lecture of the first day of Semester 1, but only if I knew.
I have a busy schedule ahead of me now, Coursework x2 will be starting soon and I am in the same group for two. I will not discuss their character, but it seems like that one make the team work and one does not. End of. Anyway, there is a coursework where we have to design a web site for a Book shop and that use a lot of coding - It will be very fun I Guess. Another where we have to base it on a Database, mainly using Access - That will be quite easy, Hopefully the marks will be at least 70% or more. And I will be Happy!
However, I have a unreliable team-mate on my side, which can be difficult to try and get things done.
Premonitions are a good thing, Look into the future to see what will happen and then find a way to fix it or prevent it. However, Life is life, any obstacles will need to be fixed when it comes around....
Monday, 25 January 2010
One from the Heart.
Everyday we make a decison,
A decision that affects the rest of our lives
We always look back at those we regret
And ponder on what would have been
But Why?
Why can we not just look beyond the past and live what we have now
Look into the future
Let by gone be by gone
Live the present with what we have now
Anything we want to do, do it now
And one day we look back and no regrets
But I want to take a moment and start to think about the things I want to achieve in live as once your youth passes you (and you may not realise but it will be really quick), you will not have the opportunity again to fulfill your life with what you wanted......
"The secret of getting things done it to act" - Dante Alighieri
A decision that affects the rest of our lives
We always look back at those we regret
And ponder on what would have been
But Why?
Why can we not just look beyond the past and live what we have now
Look into the future
Let by gone be by gone
Live the present with what we have now
Anything we want to do, do it now
And one day we look back and no regrets
But I want to take a moment and start to think about the things I want to achieve in live as once your youth passes you (and you may not realise but it will be really quick), you will not have the opportunity again to fulfill your life with what you wanted......
"The secret of getting things done it to act" - Dante Alighieri
Monday, 18 January 2010
Conicidentle Moments In Town...
The town of Bridgwater may be small and can be fully explored within 10 minutes,
But, alot happens within this area and I'm not just talking about drunken night outs, indecent exposure and random fights.
It a town whether you go in on your own or with a friend there are bound to be people you see coincidently and it may just be an acquaintance or a close friend but it still puts a smile on your face.
On the day of 15.01.10 I went in the Banks in town and I saw Ella with her family.
Had a little chat and then I said "BYE", but then I walked off and funny thing was she was going to the same place as me. The awkardness when the irony of that happening makes it uncomfortable, Thing is you say BYE but then they walk beside you, Weird. It O.K. though since I can laugh it off.
After, I ran into Laura T and Gemma. That took me by suprise as I realised there was someone slowly creeping up beside me and I did not think it would have been Laura. Funny That.
Well, after I stalked them for a while, Insulted them and made comments about Laura's Face, I proceeded into the duty of why I was in town for in the first Place and then made my way home.
Oh what a fun life I lead. But I had WORK.
I was lucky to have a Job, even if unemployment rate is slowly decreasing it still stands at aroun 11.7%.
That is alot in human count.
But, alot happens within this area and I'm not just talking about drunken night outs, indecent exposure and random fights.
It a town whether you go in on your own or with a friend there are bound to be people you see coincidently and it may just be an acquaintance or a close friend but it still puts a smile on your face.
On the day of 15.01.10 I went in the Banks in town and I saw Ella with her family.
Had a little chat and then I said "BYE", but then I walked off and funny thing was she was going to the same place as me. The awkardness when the irony of that happening makes it uncomfortable, Thing is you say BYE but then they walk beside you, Weird. It O.K. though since I can laugh it off.
After, I ran into Laura T and Gemma. That took me by suprise as I realised there was someone slowly creeping up beside me and I did not think it would have been Laura. Funny That.
Well, after I stalked them for a while, Insulted them and made comments about Laura's Face, I proceeded into the duty of why I was in town for in the first Place and then made my way home.
Oh what a fun life I lead. But I had WORK.
I was lucky to have a Job, even if unemployment rate is slowly decreasing it still stands at aroun 11.7%.
That is alot in human count.
Toys and Dolls..
For some reason, I have loads of toys
Mainly soft toys..
I use to love them
But no I think I grown out of loving them
There are a few I favour, and these are usaully ones of a larger size so that they can be hugged,
The little ones not so more.
There are a couple semi live size ones,
Both I adore
There is one in particular that I actually haven't seen for a while since there is not enough space for it to go
This is PUG, It a pig!
Good Times it was, I got him for £10 when the store where he was shutting down.
I also have a penguin called ERIC, although the name was already
And fully sewed onto the left feet, I do like the name.
I do not know why I have called this 'Toys and Dolls',
I am not a person to like dolls
They creep me out and for some reason remind me of
CHUCKY - The film
Weird Weird film.
Apart from my Toy loving fun
I love my electronics and Technology
Being a IT student myself
I do believe it is a vital Need...
Whatever Whatever....
So so ....End Of!
Mainly soft toys..
I use to love them
But no I think I grown out of loving them
There are a few I favour, and these are usaully ones of a larger size so that they can be hugged,
The little ones not so more.
There are a couple semi live size ones,
Both I adore
There is one in particular that I actually haven't seen for a while since there is not enough space for it to go
Good Times it was, I got him for £10 when the store where he was shutting down.
I also have a penguin called ERIC, although the name was already
And fully sewed onto the left feet, I do like the name.
I do not know why I have called this 'Toys and Dolls',
I am not a person to like dolls
They creep me out and for some reason remind me of
CHUCKY - The film
Weird Weird film.
Apart from my Toy loving fun
I love my electronics and Technology
Being a IT student myself
I do believe it is a vital Need...
Whatever Whatever....
So so ....End Of!
Sunday, 10 January 2010
White...Still?...Time To Go??
Bridgwater has been damned with SNOW
On the night of Passing my Test
Rather lucky to be honest
Could have been cancelled
Anyway..
Was a very eventful and beautiful day
Lovely views
And time for snow building
Creativity takes its Toll....
A bent TWIG arm on the left
My friend's glasses and her scarf
(She was a bit cold and could not see)
But it was worth it.
This BLOB was about 6'3 at least i think
Taller then me anyway
One of my friends decided to place Boobs on the BLOB
Then I decided to take them and place them look like ears
And we created the Pooh Bear Snowman thingy!!
If you look closely you may identify;
The Nose
Smile
And Eyes.
If not, Please do not stress yourself out.
After the snowman building
Snowball fun
We decided to gather around one friends house to have a cuppa and warm up
Stayed there for a while for a lovely catch-up CHAT
Gossip
General subject talk
My friend Vicky passed me a present from Christmas
She bought me a STUDENT COOKBOOK
Allowing me to unravel the world of food
That only a student will know how to cook
Meaning that they are pretty simplistic
But...
I will be the best student cook EVER
And to make sure my food is safe and edible
I will invite friends over
And I Shall Cook for them!
So this is the time when people have decided for the snow to clear up
So that we can walk on the roads with no fear of falling
Drive a car and not crash
Go out for a walk and no need to dodge snowballs
Or if worse comes to worse
Leave the house whenever we want to
So once again
BYE SNOW BYE..
SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!!
On the night of Passing my Test
Rather lucky to be honest
Could have been cancelled
Anyway..
Was a very eventful and beautiful day
Lovely views
And time for snow building
Creativity takes its Toll....
And Camera comes out
Best Picture of the batch
My camera skills are actually improving
Lovely scenarios
Gathered a few friends for the day
Build a snowman
Our creativness was lacking unfortunately
Even if there were 6 of us
My friend's glasses and her scarf
(She was a bit cold and could not see)
But it was worth it.
This BLOB was about 6'3 at least i think
Taller then me anyway
One of my friends decided to place Boobs on the BLOB
Then I decided to take them and place them look like ears
And we created the Pooh Bear Snowman thingy!!
The Nose
Smile
And Eyes.
If not, Please do not stress yourself out.
After the snowman building
Snowball fun
We decided to gather around one friends house to have a cuppa and warm up
Stayed there for a while for a lovely catch-up CHAT
Gossip
General subject talk
My friend Vicky passed me a present from Christmas
She bought me a STUDENT COOKBOOK
Allowing me to unravel the world of food
That only a student will know how to cook
Meaning that they are pretty simplistic
But...
I will be the best student cook EVER
And to make sure my food is safe and edible
I will invite friends over
And I Shall Cook for them!
So this is the time when people have decided for the snow to clear up
So that we can walk on the roads with no fear of falling
Drive a car and not crash
Go out for a walk and no need to dodge snowballs
Or if worse comes to worse
Leave the house whenever we want to
So once again
BYE SNOW BYE..
SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!!
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
It Gets Better Right?
As I have mentioned in my previous post "Once Again...." I said that I will be brining a resolution from the previous year to this year and that I will accomplish this.
I did...
It was actually My driving...
Trying to Pass my Driving test...
To do this I booked a intensive course
This consists of 3 days residentially
With 15 hours of driving time.
Mine was booked at Barry Island
I lived in a guest house for the period of my stay
Not many people know that I had a test
Well my parents and my aunt and uncle
A few of my friends..
Did not want to tell the world though.
I have reasons not to.
This was the room I stayed in, May not look as cosy but it was actually alright.
The bed was comfortable
Ensuite
And I believe that I had the biggest room in the house as well.....
Although there were these people who also rented rooms
Rather noisy at times
And they turn the TV on very loud
I was lucky I was not sleeping.
Anyway, Started driving on Sunday for 3 hours
Monday I did 4/5 Hours
Tuesday I did 6/7 Hours including my test
My hands Hurt
I was really nervous
Literally feeling my hands shaking
But..When I Heard the examiner started scribbling on his pad
I thought to myself FAIL
But I actually Passed
So relieved.
Since Driving is off my chest
I will Concentrate on exams
Only 2 - But I want 1st for Both.
So Here comes the REVISION
Let it RoLL
On the way back I had to catch the train, My mum and dad dropped me off Barry.
The train Conssited of 2 hours from Cardiff Central to Bridgwater, However waiting time consists of and overall 1 hour.
Caught the train from Barry Docks to Cardiff. Bought some food since the whole Duration of the day I had 2 cups of tea and a mini fillet. Filling, I know.
I actually got so bored listening th e my MP3 that I decided to take a picture of the opposite side
It shows no one there but there are the toilets.
Anyway, Taking this picture makes me look Weird
Rather a lot of people were kind of Staring..
But hey...
Anyway, to top it off I decided to take a picture when the Train was just about to move of.
Anyway, I got home around 8 after leaving at around 5.
Good times!
And Just before all the snow Died in!
I did...
It was actually My driving...
Trying to Pass my Driving test...
To do this I booked a intensive course
This consists of 3 days residentially
With 15 hours of driving time.
Mine was booked at Barry Island
I lived in a guest house for the period of my stay
Not many people know that I had a test
Well my parents and my aunt and uncle
A few of my friends..
Did not want to tell the world though.
I have reasons not to.
The bed was comfortable
Ensuite
And I believe that I had the biggest room in the house as well.....
Although there were these people who also rented rooms
Rather noisy at times
And they turn the TV on very loud
I was lucky I was not sleeping.
Anyway, Started driving on Sunday for 3 hours
Monday I did 4/5 Hours
Tuesday I did 6/7 Hours including my test
My hands Hurt
I was really nervous
Literally feeling my hands shaking
But..When I Heard the examiner started scribbling on his pad
I thought to myself FAIL
But I actually Passed
So relieved.
Since Driving is off my chest
I will Concentrate on exams
Only 2 - But I want 1st for Both.
So Here comes the REVISION
Let it RoLL
On the way back I had to catch the train, My mum and dad dropped me off Barry.
The train Conssited of 2 hours from Cardiff Central to Bridgwater, However waiting time consists of and overall 1 hour.
Caught the train from Barry Docks to Cardiff. Bought some food since the whole Duration of the day I had 2 cups of tea and a mini fillet. Filling, I know.
There we go, My Baugette and Medium Mocha
This costs aroun £4.59 I think. Expensive of course.
Well after I finished this, I waited again.
It was cold.
Abd I got bored.
It shows no one there but there are the toilets.
Anyway, Taking this picture makes me look Weird
Rather a lot of people were kind of Staring..
But hey...
Anyway, to top it off I decided to take a picture when the Train was just about to move of.
If you look, there is the refelction.
Anyway, I got home around 8 after leaving at around 5.
Good times!
And Just before all the snow Died in!
Friday, 1 January 2010
The First Day of 2010
Well. Today is the first day of 2010, It is officially 1st January 2010.
There is actually not much difference in this day to any other days, Except the excuse to get up and have a great time celebrating the New Year. Good Times they were.
This year was not like last, at least 1/2 of my friends did not attend this special event as they did last year but then again many did I see that I did not last year.
Overall, It was a good night, Had a few drinks to keep myself with the flow and there we go.
My phone was flooding in with lovely Happy New Year texts,
And some got a lovely non-understandable reply back
Good Times
Was juggling through pubs alot though
The Gallery - Began
Old Market - Would not let me in after 12 so was standing there looking wierd
Remedies - Ended
So, About an hour ago I went into the town of Bridgwater for a walk (Technically to buy a few things) but the town was as dead as can be. Compared to last night there is a massive and noticeable difference.
Saw a bit of blood on the floor, that was a sight to beg for,
But after standing and hanging round town for about 10 minutes, I decided to persuade my mother to come home since there was nothing open.
Was going to visit my Lovely cousins at home but they had gone out too.
New Year's Resolution will need to be planned
But, I never Keep up-track with them,
And another Question - Do New ear's Resolution ever last?
Well to everyone
There is actually not much difference in this day to any other days, Except the excuse to get up and have a great time celebrating the New Year. Good Times they were.
This year was not like last, at least 1/2 of my friends did not attend this special event as they did last year but then again many did I see that I did not last year.
Overall, It was a good night, Had a few drinks to keep myself with the flow and there we go.
My phone was flooding in with lovely Happy New Year texts,
And some got a lovely non-understandable reply back
Good Times
Was juggling through pubs alot though
The Gallery - Began
Old Market - Would not let me in after 12 so was standing there looking wierd
Remedies - Ended
So, About an hour ago I went into the town of Bridgwater for a walk (Technically to buy a few things) but the town was as dead as can be. Compared to last night there is a massive and noticeable difference.
Saw a bit of blood on the floor, that was a sight to beg for,
But after standing and hanging round town for about 10 minutes, I decided to persuade my mother to come home since there was nothing open.
Was going to visit my Lovely cousins at home but they had gone out too.
New Year's Resolution will need to be planned
But, I never Keep up-track with them,
And another Question - Do New ear's Resolution ever last?
Well to everyone
Hope you have a prosperous and sucessful NEW YEAR, Everything will come by to you what ever you want and have a enjoyable and fabulous 2010
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