Ugly Betty!

I am dedicating this piece of blog to UGLY BETTY!
Although she is a fictional character from a US drama - there are many people in the world that she potrays and I find her rather inspirational.
Apart from being a incredibly brilliant writer/editor she is pretty fearless. She strives to achieve whatever she can to make sure she stays on top. She does not care what people say about her, she does not care what people think of her, she is constantly supporting her family no matter how busy her work life is.
She is my inspiration - She's fearless and that is one thing that I lack in life. She also has a whole load of self believe and faith in herself which also shows her confidence in getting herself to places that she wants to be.

If I can be like her just  a fraction of the time I believe I can get far too. But there must be something that I am scared of which blocks my way. I mean we take risks in life, What have we got to lose? People say that to me all the time and there is no comeback phrase to that because a risk is a risk. You want to show your fearless side you should take whatever risks you can. Make sure you live life to the full.

Also, you should remember whether that risk is worth it or not, you can always look back and take from it, learn from it, and improve yourself from it.

I for one am scared of taking risks and here I can be speaking for the majority of people who might read this, I know why I hate taking risks because I am scared of the consequence that it may hold and the people it may affect. But than again that phrase pops up in my head -  What have you got to looose....??????

Exactly what have you got to lose - but I guess it depends on the situation or the nature of the risk.

In Life we have to take RISKS sometimes, we have to challenge ourselves to the limit that we can because we only live once and we cannot dwell on the facts thinking what could have been? -Maybe they can be......

Challenge yourself - Take a risk - BE FEARLESS!

DOUBTS!

Here I was going to pour my heart out to the guy I have had a crush on for a while, But I am scared of getting my heart broken -  if all the stuf he has done meant nothing than it is rather misleading -
Huh - why is this so hard sometimes?
Can life just not be as simple as a fairytale. Would be much appreciated!

Do You Know!?

I AM SIMPLE!

~~If I cannot brighten up my own day, I will 

brighten up someone else's~~

..................Lost and Confused

I didn't really know who to talk to - but it seems my life is heading towards a brick wall.
I'm just brave enough to wear a smile everyday, brave enough to say everything is okay, But it is not and I really do not know who to talk to.
I know everyone have these moments - but it seems to be dragging for me.
Nothing and I mean nothing is on track for me - Lady luck has not been on my side for a very very long time. It is frustrating and depressing.
I have a feeling I am failing in life, it just does not seems to be balanced, more on the bad side weighing down the scale and the 'Good' side is high up from the ground. The 'Good' things should be touching the ground, it should be stable in that position and never become light  - that is life - the good things make up life and I just do not seem to have any.

Any Advice?

All Over for Now.

All my deadlines are up to scratch  - feeling relieved.
All I have to do is get my exams out the way and walla.

Still struggling to find a placement though.
Also, feeling emotionaly confused.
Recently found out that the guy I liked was offered a placement, for some reason I was happy but dissapointed too.
 I think he likes me, i really do - we get along but I do not think anything will happen.
He came into the same computer room as me to work by me - and he doesn't even like that room, also left when I left.  Sweet   *Smiles*
But the question is - will it work? I mean how will it actually work out if he goes on placement and I am just sticking around.
We get along well as friends, but there is something more I want.
 -  I do not want toe make the first move though....just in case I am reading the signs wrong.

To be honest after I read his status - it put me in the worst mood.
But when I saw him - He gave me a very long hug - like he wanted to celebrate his success with me.
It was very long - very sweet too, I did not even see it coming - he just saw me and came up and hugged me.

But it cheered me up - alot.

It really did.

=]

Feeling at tthis very moment..

I feel like I just want to CRY!!!!